Blue

Lacking of confidence, hence there are fears of loss.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail to trust.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail to communicate it.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail myself.

Too much expectation, I fear disappointment.

Too much expectation, I fear abandonment.

Too much expectation, I fear impermanence.

Too much expectation, I fear failure.

I wish I was grateful for what I have, but I do expect more from time to time.

I wish for a happily-ever-after while it has always turned out to be a damn-it.

I wish I could trust the person worth trusted for, but I can't help to fail myself even before knowing if the person is worth trusted.

I wish I didn't have such feelings, but I can't deny them.

I am feeling blue.