2014 Recap and 2015 New Year Resolutions

Accomplishments in 2014:

- It was the second time I have left Cambodia for overseas trip and the first time I have been to Singapore. It was amazing and wonderful.
- I have completed ACCA for Foundation Levels; exams were taken on 4th and 5th December for F8 and F9, and the results are to released in Feb 2015.
- I have earned top scorer title for one ACCA paper (F5) and will look forward to the announcement of the F8 and F9 result.
- I have visited Siem Reap for the second time which was marvelous and enriching.
- By end of the year, I have recovered a good relationship with an old bestie. I am glad that we have made it.
- In September I met a good friend who have helped, shared, and cared in such a way that I was touched. It was so nice to know him and befriend.
- In December I took up a good habit of reading self-help books due to his good recommendations.

Twist-and-Turns in 2014:

- Relationship failed. I regretted it was ended in such an unreasonable way. Anyway, it is ended, and I am committed that I will not do the same wrongs. I have learned my bads, and I hope he has learned his.
- This is the toughest year at work especially the last quarter of 2014; though I have learned to regard it as an opportunity.

Resolutions for 2015:

- I will travel to overseas at least once and locally a few times.
- I will keep exercising at gym in the evening if not every day at least 3 times a week, go swimming twice per month, and go biking once a month.
- I will continue reading good self-help books and write a review of every good book I have read every month.
- I will gather good photos of myself and good friends around me and blog them here.
- I will maintain a good spirit in my work and continue to give myself good challenges.
- (Though hard) I will try to talk to people at the gym at my workplace, to participants of parties, and to as many people as possible during networking events.
- I will earn another top scorer from either P1 and P2.
- I will maintain good friendship with my beloved buddies no matter what by not complaining but try to be more considerate.
- I will laugh more, worry less, and be easy-going.
- I will build up my self-confidence and trust with my friends, colleagues, and loved ones.

The list seems to never end. There are so many things I wish I can accomplish in the coming year. Wish Mother God bless me with luck, strength and confidence.

Happy New Year 2015 to all friends, family, readers and bloggers!
All the best!

Cheers,
Jocelyn
31.12.14 10:09 pm

A Trip with Best Dudes...

Without plan, we hastily made up a plan to ride to Silk Island (Chamkar Sne) and to Koh Dach for a relaxing New Year Eve after the cancellation of a trip to Kompot.

With Nith and Minea, we went for a motorbike ride for almost a whole day started from 9am. The first destination was to Silk Island where we stopped by for a short while and continue to Koh Dach for lunch and a rejoicing and carefree afternoon.

We took some great pictures which I feel like treasuring in my blog.

 

Me in December

With Lina at Costa PPIU

Staff Annual Party with accounting and finance team... (From left to right, Jocelyn, Kimki, Sophal, Dan, Piv, Phea, Mala, Thyna)

Happy hour with colleagues (from left to right, Tran, Thyna, Jocelyn, Nary)

3-dude trip to Silk Island and Koh Dach (From left to right: Danith, Jocelyn, Minea)

Back to Bikey

I went biking this morning. It has been quite a long time that I have lost touch with it, the activity I used to love much. It was so nice to bike in the morning when I can inhale fresh air, enjoy the early sunrise, escape from noise pollution and crowd of people, and leave my normal commuting routes.

On one hand, I felt peace, refreshed, and relaxed; on the other hand, I felt unsafe while I biked alone on a silent, unfamiliar street. I wish every people on the road is kind and friendly; I wish no one will do any harm on me. I was thinking why I needed to be so scared to go out alone, why people cannot live peacefully with understanding and helping others around them, why the society these days are so cruel and selfish... There are so many WHYs. 

I really wanna enjoy doing things alone in this way as going to places like this does calm my mind and allow me to lose my stressed self behind.

Jocelyn

9:10pm

Chroychangva - Sokha Hotel

Thank-You Note

From every person I have met, I have learned a thing, a thing that does improve my life.

I experienced the most exciting time in my life and enjoyed the sweetest time ever. I went to places where I had never thought I would have been going to on my little old bike with a person I like so much. It was amazing and has always been so memorable. I was taught great life lessons about relationship, the breathtaking country view, and physical fitness. 

I experienced the time I felt most cared for and loved. Yet, I learn that when thing comes too easily, it does go fast and easily too. From that it is a good lesson to embrace. I have learned my mistakes. Materials are tempting, but it is the attitudes and personalities that count.

I experienced the most serene time in my life. I appreciate for what I have been given. They are nice and full of great teachings. I have been ignited the reading passion in my inner self which I have hidden for many years. I have come to learn how to appreciate life and enjoy what I am currently having and be cool and calm for what I am not given. Thanks to the authors of the books I have been recommended to chew with. 

There are reasons for me to meet every of them; there are failures, and there are sadness; but there are lessons, and there are sweetness. I know the Mother God has blessed me to meet them and she will watch over if I can handle wisely the testings put on me.

Thanks for everything.

Jocelyn
27.12.2014
9:59pm

Feeling stressed :'(

I have been complaining a lot and kind of hot-tempered recently. It seems that the environment around me has been pressing hard on me, and I find December my deadly month of the year.

I wish I were shouting out loud and cry out loud. I am feeling tough and down and emotions are timed to explode one day.

I wish someone would come to give me a tight hug and let me cry on his shoulders. But I find myself crying alone and the tear is dried by the wind.

I wish I were stronger emotionally and mentally...

Another dream...

It marks another end tonight, and it is seemingly a dream. This was a good dream, and I wouldn't have wanted to be awaken so fast. The dream started nicely and now ended nicely. It was simple, very simple.

This is in the middle of the night, and I was awaken by this simple dream and made me another sleepless night which I used to encounter previously. It's hard to describe why I so care about this simple dream and how it has influenced on me from the beginning till this point in time. It was peaceful and pleasant, and perhaps it was so peaceful and pleasant that none of us are excited about it? Well, we can't explain it since it can't be explained. Sometimes when things are going so well might turn out to be just a memory. We will wonder ourselves why we can't be more excited; we will surprise ourselves that we just can't work out and still don't know why.

Well, is it ended? Is it really ended? I wish it stayed. I wish it weren't just a memory.

A dream is a dream; however it is nice, we cannot force it to restart. By chance it will come to us again. How much chance will there be?

I have been taught to let go. That's how I have learned to survive through the times I was down after each nightmare. This was not a nightmare, and it's not that tough to get out of it.

When things are not ours, they go. When they do stay, it's time to appreciate and take good care of it. I wish it stayed...


Cheers,
Jocelyn
15.12.2014
23:35

Blue

Lacking of confidence, hence there are fears of loss.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail to trust.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail to communicate it.

Lacking of confidence, hence I fail myself.

Too much expectation, I fear disappointment.

Too much expectation, I fear abandonment.

Too much expectation, I fear impermanence.

Too much expectation, I fear failure.

I wish I was grateful for what I have, but I do expect more from time to time.

I wish for a happily-ever-after while it has always turned out to be a damn-it.

I wish I could trust the person worth trusted for, but I can't help to fail myself even before knowing if the person is worth trusted.

I wish I didn't have such feelings, but I can't deny them.

I am feeling blue.

A Gift

This is so beautiful a gift I received from Bong Uy today.

Anyone knows how to take good care of plant? Gonna learn how to do it. ^^

Cheers,
Jocelyn
2014.12.07

This is how it looks like on my work desk. Well stationed. ^^

Updated on 08.12.14

TED talk day

I have listened and watched several TED Talks today, the first Sunday I have had after the cumbersome ACCA exams in the last two days. This was a cool day. I haven't enjoyed such productive activity for quite some times. All I have done in the last couple of months were all focusing on the course books, going to classes and doing unproductive so-called stress releasing activities.

I love myself today.

From a talk titled 'Trying something new for 30 days', I feel inspired that I should make changes to myself too, at least for the next 30 days. Then I was thinking what challenge I should undertake for the next 30 days. I could not think of one until now in this evening that I listened to another TED Talk about 'Blogging' and its merits coming about blogging. Yes, I have a blog! Why don't I start blogging again? 

I was inspired to start writing a blog while I was in uni. However, I have given it up after leaving uni and have posted only once in a blue moon. I am now inspired again. I should jot down remarkable moments and keep memories. A blog is a great means.

So my challenge for the next 30 days is to write experiences in my blog every day. I am gonna love myself more.

Cheers

Jocelyn

2014.12.07