Sunday, June 17, 2012

All about feelings...


I hate these feelings, the feeling of not being able to find someone to talk to when I wish to release my feelings, the feeling of being afraid that the one(s) I wish to talk to does not want to talk to me, the feeling of being lonely although many people are around me.

These are such fucking feelings that I wish to avoid from having and that I wish to eliminate when I start to have them. But I cannot do anything about it because it’s just all about my personality that I need someone to talk to when I am not happy. When I am rejected esp by the person I wish to talk to most, the feeling will be doubled.

I am sensitive and emotional. Once I am rejected once or at most twice, I will feel discouraged to ask for it again. It might be partly because I am angry with the person, but it’s mainly because I don’t want to add disappointment to my current dump feeling. It’ll simply end up with depression.

Am I not strong enough to be alone?

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