I hate these feelings, the feeling of not being able to find
someone to talk to when I wish to release my feelings, the feeling of being
afraid that the one(s) I wish to talk to does not want to talk to me, the
feeling of being lonely although many people are around me.
These are such fucking feelings that I wish to avoid from
having and that I wish to eliminate when I start to have them. But I cannot do
anything about it because it’s just all about my personality that I need
someone to talk to when I am not happy. When I am rejected esp by the person I
wish to talk to most, the feeling will be doubled.
I am sensitive and emotional. Once I am rejected once or at
most twice, I will feel discouraged to ask for it again. It might be partly
because I am angry with the person, but it’s mainly because I don’t want to add
disappointment to my current dump feeling. It’ll simply end up with depression.
Am I not strong enough to be alone?
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