A Wall

I have been in this new post window for half an hour, writing and deleting sentences for several times, yet nothing has come out. One more day, January just says goodbye to everyone without mercy. I want at least to write a post for January.

What's happened in Jan? I haven't been happy in Jan. The worst feeling I suffered is being not able to talk to the person I wish to talk to. There is a very big wall between us and I just cannot find the way to break it or jump over it. I feel that there are so many walls ahead which I cannot jump over one after another again and again. I feel tired of this feeling, yet I cannot forgo it. I wanted to turn away to either my left, right or simply turn round, but I have warned myself not to do so because I was afraid that instead of finding my way out, I would fall into a valley or simply find another endless walls. The wall has been built higher and higher, stronger and stronger, wider and wider...Now there is a hole to see and talk with hard work, but soon the hole might even be blocked, I cannot jump over it, nor can I walk to the both ends to find a way to the other side.

Well, that's it. Just a short note for Jan.