The Nature of Human Beings

I wonder why human beings cannot live in peace with others and make the world a pleasant place to live. Why are we shadowed by anger, jealousy, and revenge? Looking at both local and international daily news, we can find articles about murders, rapes, injuries due to revenge, and the likes. What has this world become? Why has human's nature changed from being gentle and kind to as brutal as beasts?

A husband beats his wife to death because she came home late at night; a son kills his mother because she is too strict on him; a father puts his son in the washing machine; a boyfriend murders his girlfriend because she wants to break up with him; a teacher tortures her pupils for no reason; a student is bullied because he/she is not a part of the group at schools. These are examples of brutality. Humans can do such cruel things on those who are living closely with them every day.

I wish for a world of peace--a world where people can live happily together. In old times, we have rarely heard of such kind of cruelty. Why can't we live in brotherhood? Nature of human being has already integrated with that of beasts simply because of uncontrollable anger and jealousy. Is this nature curable? I don't want to hear those bad news anymore.

Let's say no to violence!

It's True!

Mark this date down: November 27, 2011.

I felt so excited that what I have been guessing comes out as reality. :)

Self Evaluation

Evaluating what I have done recently:


It seems that I have spent too much time on having funs with friends, in person and thru fb. I feel that I haven't developed at all or am even on the process of going backward. Books are left behind these days although exams are coming in early Dec. My dear self, what have you been doing?!
 
I love this period--the period after I have completed my thesis until now--because I have laid down the academic loads. So far, I have freed myself and have had so much rejoice with friends every weekend although I am still having classes at CamEd. Now the exams are coming, and when I open the accounting practice books, I could not work out all the exercises with ease. I also do some of them wrongly. I believe that is the result of leaving the books in the corner and indulgence myself with too much fun.
 
This post is not to blame anyone but myself. Addiction to fb and anticipation to have fun with friends have made me going downward. For the good sake of my future and upgrade, I will limit myself with the time spent on fb and set myself a schedule to read books and do exercises every day. Hope I can do it and restore with updates to my previous self.

What a confusing feeling...

In fact it's hard to identify which feeling is right and which is wrong. You might be able to tell people around you who you like. However, reality may not be so. Perhaps you don't want to reveal all of your inner feelings due to shyness and shame or perhaps you yourself don't know exactly who you really love and are happy to be with at all times.

You may keep telling yourself that he is the one you love and try to follow his every step for whatever he does, whatever he says, wherever he goes, etc. Once you are rejected, you feel lost and shameful because you are not the one he chooses. You may feel down in the dump closing yourself away from everyone even from thoses who really care for you. I love an idea from a friend, 'You should not give 100% of your love to him/her because you will simply lose yourself when s/he leaves you. Love him/her 80% and love yourself the remaining.'

Love is not everything--once you lose one, you can find a new one, but make sure you are not a two-timer. I hate this bullshit people!

To love is to have the loved one happy but not to try to own him/her. It's easy to say so, but I hope I can do it. However, once I do it, I doubt if I have loved him.

Who is your Mr. RIGHT?
He is not the one who matches your materialistic requirements;
He is not the one who has good looking appearance;
He is not the one who knows how to use sweet words;
He is not the one who can do everything;
He is not the one who cares for you most;
He is not the one who loves you;

But....

He must be someone who has mutual feeling with you. Without saying a word, he knows what you feels and can make you happy most of the times when you are with him and vice versa. Remember, MUTUAL FEELINGS matter most!

Uncontrollable Anticipation

I'm addicted! I can't wait for the day to come. There is always an activity I have been doing with Nith on every Saturday or Sunday, that is, we go cycling. I go cycling almost every morning during weekdays, however, I have rarely go farther than the Wat Phnom, Psar Doeum Ko, or Chak Angre Leu. I have noticed that I really like cycling now, esp with Nith to distant places where I myself alone cannot explore or dare not to explore.

Every week I wish Nith is free enough to accompany and take me to places I have never been too. It is such a good adventure which I long for once a week. I know that this activity may not last forever because Nith will be occupied and I may be as well. However, I wish to enjoy it now until that day comes.

Sporting and adventuring have become my favorites! Thanks to Nith for making them become so.

My Diary_Koh Kong Trip

UNBELIEVEABLE! Totally unbelievable! I’ve been out of town for four times this year, and especially within a period of four months plus a few days. Therefore, in average, I went to provinces almost once a month from July to November! Also what a coincidence! All the trips are two-day-one-night! ;)

+ July 02-03: Trip to Kep, Kep Cave, and Rabbit Island (UC group)

+ Aug 01-02: Trip to Kompong Som and Kbal Chhay (NOKIA group)

+ Oct 31-Nov 01: Trip to Kompong Som (UNFPA group)

+ Nov 09-10: Trip to Koh Kong (Mixed group)

Rabbit Island

Kompong Som with NOKIA

Kompong Som with UNFPA

Koh Kong Trip

However, this post should be exclusive for Koh Kong trip. This trip is in some way special of all because I was also one of the organisers; Vutha was the initiator, and Chetra and I were the co-organisers contributing a bit on budgeting for the trip. I didn’t actively participate in organizing it though, and I was glad that I didn’t have to keep the money.

The right before the trip was relaxing and worry-free; I went to bed at 10pm as usual after facebooking.

There were 29 participants—17 females and 12 males. What was special in this trip was that there were 5 or more distinct groups who gathered at invitation of the trip.

+ Group I: Tharat’s group (8 people)

+ Group II: Bong Rithy’s group (10 people)

+ Group III: UC group (4 people)

+ Group IV: Tuol Tom Poung Group (3 people)

+ Group V: Num group (3 people)

And Wuisiong, my Singaporean colleague from the Embassy.

Schedule for the 2-day-1-night trip had been changed from a 3-day-2-night trip due to time and finance factors. However, personally, I prefer the original plan.

Being woken up by the phone alarm, I got up at 4:45am and got myself prepared well before time to set off. Minea arrived at my house and we went to UC together; I was with my dad’s motorbike and he was with my bro’s after finding no motortaxi.

Unluckily, the plan to meet up in front of UC was cancelled because the roads were blocked due to the National Day. Plan was changed to meet up on the west side of the Langka Pagoda.

The bus arrived at around 7am. We picked up other participants who had to get on the bus on our way to Koh Kong. They included Tola, Tharat’s sis, Vutha, and B. Bunna.

The following is my first day activities:

- Home --> UC --> Sre Ombil Bridge for lunch (9:30am)

- Ta Tai Waterfall --> Koh Kong Town (2pm) --> 2000 Beach (3pm)

- Mangrove Forest (4pm) --> Guesthouse (6:30pm)

- Koh Kong Bridge for dinner (7:30pm) --> Night walk (8:45pm) --> Guesthouse (9:30pm)

- Chitchat (10:10pm) --> Bed (11:30pm)

After the whole night of toss and turn, I finally managed to wait until the 2^nd morning to say hi. I got up at 4:50am and washed my face and got dressed up because I had a morning plan with Nith, Minea, and Vutha for a healthy early exploration of Koh Kong Town. Chetra also joined us. We set off from the guesthouse at 5:45am because Nith was busy looking for his watch which he had stupidly misplaced (Shuu..take this chance to mock him lol…). Time was tough; however, we did have a great morning walk.

Clever enough, we went to have breakfast before others after paying the food expenses to B. Dara who prepared all food for us at Koh Kong during our stay. That was also the time that I noticed that my old disease was about to come back. My small intestine started hurting me, and till now I haven’t fully recovered. The hurt distracted me all day and made me unable to feel full-heartedly happy for the remaining journey.

Let’s see the following activities in my second day there:

- Leave from guesthouse to walk around (5:45am) -->; B. Dara’s house for breakfast (6:30am)

- Back to guesthouse to have shower and get prepared (7:05am) --> B. Dara’s house to get breakfast for participants (7:15am)

- Khmer-Thai border --> Thai Market (9am) --> Casino Beach (10am)

- Khun Chhang Khun Phen Tomb (11am)--> Dorning Tung Market --> B. Dara’s house to get lunch

- Ta Porn Waterfall (12:30pm)--> Phnom Penh (8:30pm)--> Home with Minea (9pm)

  Product from Thai Market

After the trip to Kompong Som with NOKIA group, I have broken my ‘rule’; I have been more active on the bus than before, and I’m glad that I could do so. At the same time, I wish I could do better in any trip I will join in the future. Although the journey seems rushing, I feel excited to have travelled in this way because I could go to and know different places in such a short time. Especially, I had a wonderful time with the ones I wish to travel with and with those I have never know. Nothing would make me more excited than my wish coming true.

Koh Kong is another record in my travel history, and I wish to go to Siam Reap, Rattanakiri, and Mondulkiri next next times. Of course, I sincerely thank Vutha for creating this event, Chetra for co-organising, Nith, Minea, and Visal for participating and accompanying, and others for participating.

Love u, Koh Kong!

Dear friends, more pics can be found on facebook. Thanks for reading. ;)

My change

People always change from time to time. I notice that I have also changed alot recently. I don't know if, in people's eyes, they are good or bad changes, but I like what I have changed to.

I'm not as reserved as before because I feel so lonely when I keep myself away from people around. I have tried to be more active and talk to everyone around me.

I'm not shy as before because I feel that I will lose opportunities due to this personality. I will ask for what I want and tell people how I feel.

I'm confident now although I'm not perfect because no one is perfect.